And now...tatam...the metamorphosis

It is twenty years ago now, more or less, that we met again, Tossan and I.  Shortly. This time it was inside a saga about the little girl Filippa who died in blood-cancer before her seventh birthday. Tossan was there with her since Filippa was born and also Isidor, a small but very strong and courageous dragon, appeared in her life, some years later. But that is really another story.
                       
However it inspired me to invent this metamorphosis:
My husband is building a catamaran and we have given her the name Tossan, from my story about Filippa.
So...
To develop from a sheer small fairy about two decimeter tall and with the weight  of some grams into a huge catamaran, nine meter wide and fifteen meter long with the weight of some thousand kilos seems to be a rather impossible task for anyone.
But for me it is a play, a metafor, an allegory about life with many philosophical and spiritual reflections and thoughts that will appear here "helter-skelter" (this strange word I found in my dictionary-app)

The catamaran has become sort of a living being with her name and I convert it to a metaphor of a consciousness, a common growing consciousness for a man and a woman, from something very subtle without weight to something very heavy, thrilling and delicious, with slender forms, two masts and two wings... (Wings? Yes, wings, not sails)

Elvs and faeries also have two wings. You see, one common denominator! The faeries are dancing among the plants in nature. The catamaran Tossan will dance on the oceans, delight in the wind. Playfully "swim" among dolphins and whales, plunge herself through storms and waves...

Hmmmm....a pretty good allegory, somewhat "shaky" but the essence for me is that both elves and catamarans are filled up to the border with love, happiness and life-force!

Metamorphosis?

So, we met once again, in this very Era of time, although in different dimensions. Tossing as a faery and I as a human being. Well, if I would not have been a human being I would not have been able to tell about these events that will unfold in this blog.

I had heard that Tossan had dedicated her life to visit children who had difficulties in their lives. Sometimes as a fantasy friend or as an angel. This was a task she was very fond of. It gave her great joy and meaning. Perhaps she shared some years of their lives, until the child either grow up and the need of a fantasy friend faded away, or until the child left her/his physical world. Then Tossan used to follow into the transition to another dimension.

I think on the word "metamorphosis". Actually the title for this part of my blog should be
"Tossan´s fantastic metamorphosis"
It sounds somewhat ridiculous! Hmmmm...
To claim that a small tiny little fairy would be able to go through a metamorphosis! Into what?

Well, for the moment it is a hidden secret. First I have to tell about Filippa as it was through her that Tossan and I met again.

Our very first meeting

My very first concrete and conscious "meeting" with Tossan happened for so so about hundred thousand years ago. It was here on this fantastic planet Earth.
I am fully conscious that telling this I exaggerate enormously but it is really difficult to handle and describe the perception of time that we human beings have.

At that time she was a playful "real" fairy who tittered, giggled among flowers and leaves, dancing, singing , teasing and playing around with other faeries, elfs and alvs, just in the way you do when you are a happy nature spirit.

At that time I was a very small troll, much more heavy and not in the least that ethereal and sublime as Tossan. We could still play very well together.

Times were passing. Our life paths separated. Sometimes they crossed each other and then again they took different directions. Just as it is in life, regardless of aeons or dimensions where one´s life take place.

A fairy called Tossan

This will be a long long story. A story about Tossan´s  huge and strange metamorphosis. This may sound strange and so it is. It starts like this:

Once upon a time, a time very long ago, yes, eons ago and further eons ago, there was a small fairy who sometimes had the name Tossan. I will talk more about her now... soon...later....

But that far back in time, in a time that actually does not exist in the way we human beings are used to, she was not a fairy but a single big consciousness. A being of Love, yes, nothing less than a big loving Light.

In that time so long ago neither I did exist so we did not meet at all.

Objection!

I was also there as a big light, of course, so one could say that we were floating together in the Universe, in the All...