Once upon a time there was a princess ...

... who had a great longing for her prince that should come on a white horse and love her always and forever. 

She waited and waited, sitting close to her life-tree.

 Her yearning grew but he never came. 

But one day when her princesscrown had fallen off her head, as the leaves fall off the trees in the autumn, 

and she almost had given up her hope for love,

a little frog came jumping in the grass.

The little frog, who wasn´t that little, stayed in front of the girl who seemed to have fallen asleep, (or was she crying?)and waited for her to wake up, (or stop crying) so that she could give him the kiss of love that would set him free.

After aeons of endless time the girl finally stood up and kissed the frog with great tenderness.

Oh, you have no white horse! You are a dragon! And me too!  Wow,  what a surprise!

Let us start a wild love-dance.

oil, 76 x 110 cm

May I present: Dragon Isidor

 When I first met Isidor he was a pulp. Like this:

and this was his feminin appareance:

Today I will need many words in order to present Isidor a little bit closer.

I met this pulp at an "island" in the middle of a mire.

On this little island there was a nice hole where I used to sit and contemplate over life and enjoing the sun,  being hidden from the eyes of moose and their hunters if the happened to pass by. 

(it only happened in the autumn)

In the hole there was a treasure and the task of the pulp was to protect this treasure, so, he was not very happy to have two human intruders there, not to forget the dog. It was interesting because the dog didn´t like to go to mire at all. There where snakes, wasps and then this bad humored pulp! 

Obviously she  had eyes to see what we humans only could feel or divine.

Well, I have to make it short. 

The years passed and one day suddenly there was an opening in the clouds  and Isidor showed himself for the first time and I gave him his name from a child-book about cute, sweet and kind dragons. 

Slowly the pulp began to transform into Isidor and since then he has been a very good friend.

I just want to add that the treasure that was hidden in the hole was of cource of spiritual nature.

When I painted Isidor for the first time it was funny to put him in a more dragonlike, wild nature. 

But no fire yet. He was still a very young dragon!

Impossible to plan in advance

watercolor, 50 x 70 cm

Well, I do plan before which image I shall upload and write about. And yesterday I choose three paintings about the reunion of the two polarities.

It was not that easy. There was only one! (if I don´t count a carpet). 

Perhaps I painted this one some ten years ago, I don´t remember and it is too much fuss to take it out and see if I have put the year on it. What I do remember is that I got surprised and a little scared when I saw what I had painted.

So much pain! Still! (By that time I had not yet discovered Tantra.)

My intention had been to show how "heaven" and "earth" at last had melted together.

What a disappointment! 

Using the story of Adam and Eve as a metafor, I had a theory that inside every human being there is a great pain and sorrow as a result of having been throwned out from the Garden of Eden. One could say that this symbolical event was the starting point for the  cleavage between man and woman, between masculine and feminine, the differences between the left and right brainhalves, between ying and yang ... 

I know, I know! My reasoning can meet many objections .... it doesn´t matter. For me it has served for doing my paintings and I have my creative liberty to explain whatever I want with the words I want to. 

And using Adam and Eve as symbols for the old-time man and woman has served me a lot during many years of inner journey.

And of cource I have many textiles and paintings with Adam and Eve. They will come later.

And of cource I continue my traveling ...

One more separation ... the third and last one.

oil, 70 x 105 cm

Some years ago I studied rethoric at the university. The first year was very funny because we made a lot of speeches. (The second year was too academic and I left it in big frustration) But as my memory is not among the most brilliant ones I have forgotten almost everything I learned.

But one thing was important: the number three. 

A speech should contain three subjects and these could be reflected  from three different sides. You could have three examples, three sugestions and so on.

This trick I now will use in my blog. So I will show three "separations" and then change subject.

That´s why I have onother separation-painting, this time in oil.

Just for fun I have counted how many separations-images I have made during my 28 years of creating art.  There were not so many! Just 4 textiles, 6 watercolors and 3 oils.

 Only that? Well, then I´m not too squared! (thanks dictionary) 

Textile separation

225 x 112 cm, wool and glasspearls on white velvet

Here I have played with the "divine sword", or the life-force, that cuts the tree in two parts, which for me signifies the startingpoint in becoming human being. One can see the female and masculine tree, how they are separated with great pain and then how they come together in the bigger tree after many, many lifes.

The concept of reincarnation is for me a fact, not something that I believe in or something I wish was true. I know because I have done a lot of work "going down" (difficult with words) to many other lives.

I suspect I will come back to this subject many times.

As I´m rather lousy at drawing the human body, especially faces, I very early choose to make trees instead of bodies. Much more easy and funny. So I have done hundreds of trees and probably my "tree-period" will never end.

Well, sort of it ended eight years ago when I started to paint in a more  intuitive way. Besides, I also got allergic to my wools (and our dog) so I had to quit totally making textiles.

I paint with watercolour and waterbased oilcolours. That is good for the smell at home and of cource it´s important not to pollute the environment.

Many years ago.

When I started to do textiles and paintings 28 years ago, more or less, I was very inspired by a channeled espiritual teacher. I got the idea to change his simple drawings into something more beautiful but with the same message in it. Well, sort of.
But very soon I started to do my own images, wanting to express all this new insights about life, about why´s and how´s and when´s. About the inner growth and so on and so on.

We talked a lot about the masculine and feminin inside each person. About man and woman. About the separation and differences between the sexes.
This huge subject has occupied my mind since then and I have done many paintings and textiles with this theme.

The watercolour painting above (50 x 70 cm) is one of them.

For me, one of the tasks we human beings have here on earth, "coming down" life after life, is to melt this two forces in us together and become whole, complete and one.

I know it sounds a little woolly or wishy-washy (lucky that I have a diccionary) but for me it is very clear!
Well, I have been dealing with it for many years and I still have more to learn.

Much more difficult than I thought.

We live in a sort of "free" world and I suppose that one can write a blog in a language that is not your native language. This is only a test for my self.
Tomorrow I will continue. What a challenge!!!